Franklin, you are awesome. I think you have gone about it the right way so far. I rose to the rank of MS and resigning from that was difficult. But I did it. I remember reading you story in the past and feeling pity for you because of the situation you were in.
I continue to wish you the best. Oh, and a well deserved commendation on how you handled the troll. It asked me the same question before I resigned. Still can't figure out how that would prove anything. But whatever.
How is your wife dealing with your decision? (I respect if you don't want to share that openly on this forum.)
I am so glad to read of experiences like yours in which I could relate to. When you have doubts, per the WTBS, it's your fault. But as time progresses and you increase in your activity, you discover that the fault indeed lies with those who claim to be the channel of God. May you continue to find peace, as I also have in my decreased activity.
Have I lost God's blessing? I can't say for certain, but it sure doesn't feel like it. And an honest hearted person like yourself doesn't seem likely to either.
CoC